Yay....summer....kinda sucks....I need a job....i gotta stop being a lazy hobo.

Finally posting some stuff up though so thats a plus....yeah.

Yay for random journal.

It seems that bad news alway has to follow good news.

The Good News is, that Graduation tomorrw.

The Bad News is my Tio Chencho died...early this morning, at 3 [A.M.].

I was never really close to my uncle, but I did love him very much...The last time I saw him in a long time was just yesterday. And today, this morning i find out that he died over the answering machine at 5 A.M. And knowing that...hit me really hard. Yesterday, seeing him lying there...motionless...unaware of everything around him....i heard my dad talking earlier today about when he was with my uncle yesterday...he said that the last thing my uncle said...was his name....after that he had been in and out of conciousness....nothing but a vegitated state.

I'm excited to graduate. Exited, scared...it just seems so surreal to me...I've planned a party at my house after graduation, invited all my friends...but now i'm starting to think that they wont go to it....i know i shouldnt really care or not...but...still to me it means so much to me...to think that they even care... i need to feel that they care...It's just so simple....just....and hello goodbye show...but of course...i just put too much trust into the people i concider friends...it seems like i can never depend on anybody. And they wonder why I dont have many friends. that's funny isnt it. My 'friends' wonder why i dont have many friends.

I dont know if its death ridden depression or what, but this does seem to happen to me alot. Can anybody tell me what i'm doing wrong? So I can stop, so everything can be alright. You may not even care right now, but I've been crying through out this whole entire thing.

I just want to feel appriciated. That's all. It seems that the only people whole seem to care are Will and Katie....but then again they are the only people that I've really talked to...they are the only people who seems to appreciate me...but even sometimes i doubt that.

But all I can say now is-- i can't wait until college starts. I can start everything fresh...Begin a whole new life. Make more friends...If i can even do that.

Also, I'd like to thank anybody who has read this...It really does mean alot to me...you have not even the sightest clue....Thank you. But please...show that you care in person...but i mean really show....Don't say that you'll pay me back sometime...and then just use me to your advantage again. Yes I know I seem to walk right into it by offering...But thats just who i am...but maybe i should just stop...let you fend for yourself.

~Character Meme~
tagged by arkAdolescent

1) What's your character's name?
Sirena Mentor

2) How old is he/she?
No real default age...but she lives up to be around 200.

3) Is your OC a boy or girl?
Girl

4) What's his/her race?
Comes from a Long line of Mexican...if you can say that [lives in a newfound planet.] she's actualy a bona fide mutt, following the Hispanic origin and a bit of the arabian and some european origin.

Appearance

1) If this character were to suddenly become part of the real world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get?
Not many...She usually likes to blend in unless necissary. Although there could be many senarios...Lets say...You catch her on a normal monday afternoon. Schoo would have gotten out so she would still be in her school uniform, she usually wears her knee high combat boots...most would just stare a few seconds and mind their own business. Although if you catch her during a mission, she is usually wearing a black tank along with tight black pants and usually has armor, along with various ass destructio weapons. I bet that would catch a few glances.

2) Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
Well...The people in her world all have different versions of magic they use, and also different magical races, nobody is normal in Avodin....so....ironically yes...she would be concidered normal.

3) What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
She midback length more red than brown hair. Her Amber [yellow orange] eyes, ad later in her like....20's or so, her Sentry Mark.

4) Would you consider your OC as attractive?.
She...well...you know idk...


Personality

1) Temper?
She needs angermanagement at times when she's had enough of being annoyed, but it kinda take a whole lot of pressure for that to ensue.

2) Does your character ever get depressed?
Wel she does have her emo moments, where she radomly dissapears and goes into hiding for an amount of time, but she gets over it.

3) Leader or Follower?
Usually likes to do what shes told.

4) What is the main aspect(s) of his/her personality?
She gets along with many people but there can be a few that she can't stand at even the site.

History

1) Did your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive?
Haha, my character has tons of family...but to tmake things short, she has...Sergio Mentor and Elisa Arias mentor as the rents, and...lets just say 8 brothers and 5 sisters.

2) Is your character out on his/her own? If so, why?
Sometimes yes Sometimes no

3) Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
..She witnessed her eldest brothers death....And ....thats all i think...as you can tell, my character and i don't talk much.

4) What was probably the best time in his/her life so far?
So far...? Um...Being alone with her secret crush [Jack, her brother Franciscos BFF]. The recent Mentor Family Reunion.

Romance

1) Single?
Yes yes.

2) Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
Well... She's had a few.

3) Virgin?
...Define your Virginity.

4) Does your character like flirting?
With her defiition of hot guys.


Symbolism

1) What animal would you associate your OC with?
a Panther!

2) Musical Instrument?
Violin

3) Element?
Water

4) Planet?
um..Neptune?


Showing the Love

1) Do you draw your character?
Do stick people count?

2) Do you write about him/her?
um...Yes...She's....kinda...my charaacter...>.>

3) Do you use him/her in any rpgs?
Haha she's my default one.

4) What other ways have you appreciated your OC?
um....I use her name for junk mail....!!!


RANDOMIZE!

1) Is your character wanted for anything?
No...of...course not...>.>

2) What are three weaknesses in him/her?
1-Friends/family
2-Pity
3-confusion

3) Strengths?
1-Freinds/family
2-Elemental facilities [if that makes sense]
3-cool...spy gadgets...?

4) Does your OC drink or smoke (etc.)?
When her frieds are having a party at the 'secret spot'

5) What's one quirk about your him/her?
She randomly sings and sometimes dances to the music only she can hear...>.>

6) Does your character have any phobias?
...Spiders.....loosing a limb...loosing anything in general...

7) What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage?
Hurt anybody she loves. and...read her diary. You can ask her nephew about the real hurt she can inflict on one who reads her diary. Give her something that will confuse her.

8) Does your OC like chickens?
Actually, at one of her families houses[ they have many] They have a farm with chickens...she usually kicks them...sometimes...


The Final Question

What would you consider your relationship with your character to be like?
We dont talk much....^.^''


I tag:
everyone who's reading this